I lost my Best Friend Chloe this past Wednesday, Chloe was over 20 years old, we got her from a family member she was already a grown cat over 20 years ago so in Human years she was a old lady. She outlived her 3 Brothers, Oscar, FatCat( or aka huge ) and Spider. She outlived her Sister Mongrol who passed on Nov 7, 2020,  it was Chloe and I the last 2+ years. I'm going on 52 years old and I've always had Cats in my life, Never had or been a dog person, I guess I prefer Cats for my furry friend.  I gotta say though Chloe was probally my last one, who knows, maybe someday after I retire, I'll get another.  who knows, All I know is Emotionally we humans should not have to put our friends or family to sleep. I Like the idea of sending a loved one to Heaven peacefully. Its the decision leading up to that moment.

Wednesday I had a hard time picking up Chloe from the comfort of my Bed where her and I slept every night and walking out the door on the way to vet, absolutely gut wrenching this past week has been for me, I'm still losing it every day when I think of how much she was there for me and I for her. One thing I keep thinking is through her mind is Chloe is missing me, She is missing me, her relationship with me,  All of you that have or have had pets all know is that they rely on you and your companionship, they love you unconditionally.  I find You don't get that too much with humans, humans have words and all words are often misinterpreted, with dogs or cats or any pet, its an unspoken word and action that shows their love for you.   

Chloe was always friendly with other humans when they were over in our world but I always noticed she would always look at me, like as to say do not let this person take me away from you. she would always be by my side, if she or her sister Mongrol was not sitting on my lap they were always within arms reach of me for a friendly pet on the head.  haha in fact, as you'll see in a pic below the majority of my photography and video editing over the years I've had a cat for a palm rest under my keyboard while sitting in the chair editing pics and vids.

We Humans go through life and at the end if your lucky have a loved one talk about what they have done and have meant to them or others, Well this is Chloe's story, She was loved by me, She loved me unconditionally, I will never forget or stop loving you or your siblings,  you are now with them and Mom at the bridge, I will see you someday there.

I want to thank my Mom for taking in Chloe, I took over shortly after without her my relationship with Chloe would not have happened. I want to thank my Dad for going to the Vet with me and Chloe, we were both in the room as Chloe passed. Love you Dad. and I want to thank my Neighbor/friend Cindy for taking care of my Chloe and Mongrol whenever I went on vacation the past few years.

Please read and Enjoy Chloe's life, then go hug and hold your pet close after. They love you and miss you that second you weren't paying attention

Dad with Fat Cat, Mom and Chloe, Christmas 2007

What I miss and I'll miss is how Chloe and my Cats felt, I can feel their weight on me, how their paws felt on me, how their fur felt. thats a sensory we will take to our graves. 

Me: "Chloe go upsidedown"

Mongrol and Chloe riding shotgun on our move to perrysburg 2011

Since Wednesday I found myself saying "Chloe I gotta get up" when I get up from the chair as I was always disturbing their naps 

Queen of the chair

Spider, Chloe and Mongrol Would always be sleeping like this when not on me

Spider would bath Chloe, did'nt know if Chloe loved that, but adapted :)

What?

Chloe would do this to my legs almost daily,  mainly when food was involved, it was cute, I miss those paws

As with most photographers out there, once you get new gear you go straight to your pets to test out the new gear, pretty sure this was when I got my 35mm f1.4

You look pretty here Chlo Chlo, I'm having this in a 8x10 print

At any cost she would have to be on me! 

New kayak day

Squirrel

My fav photo of Mongrol and Chloe,  5-6-2020   6 months later Mongrol would pass :(

10-11-20  Mongrol died on 11-7-20 :(     Mongrol would push/knead her paws on me before I went to bed. I miss you Mongrol :(

9-4-21 I would let Chloe out for minute or two supervised(because of hawks) each day to walk around and try to eat the flowers

Chloe would nestle her head under my chin, couple times fell asleep, heard her snore once

11-5-22

These two pics below, I want to say this sad story of Wednesday, Sometimes I would check my security camera's from my phone when I was on vacation for week or so, many times in the mountains I would fall asleep after checking in on Chloe and Mongrol, I've cut trips short the past couple years due to missing my pets to much.  well since Chloe stopped eating food the last couple weeks I knew her time on earth was coming to a end and  I would be checking in on her on my camera's lately.   Tuesday I had planned to take her to the vets for that day. but on the camera tuesday morning I saw her eating or what turned out to be trying to eat food and cancelled the Vet appointment for tuesday. ok I thought she might be trying to fight for her life,  lets give her a day.  but I knew that night that this day would be it as she did not eat :(  I left for work a delivery in cleveland, at 6:30 I took a screenshot, I thought is she saying goodbye to me (I enter and leave out that door every day) my heart sank a bit when I thought about it

Did my work then While driving home I saw her in the upper left corner lay down and watched as she did not move for the longest time, I thought she just said goodbye and died! I lost it, I cried and cried while driving the turnpike home for a hour watching her not moving, saying to myself she died alone! I was not there! I waited to long! she died alone.  it was brutal sadness and guilt!  then as I was to get off the turnpike I saw her move and sit differently.   I made it home and found her still sitting in the same position alive.   I put her on the bed and she drank some water,  but later puked that water up as I was taking her to the vet.  As of the day before she was still peeing in her litter box but now that was not gonna happen,  Age or disease had taken its toll on my Chloe :(

Rest in Peace Chloe, I'll miss you forever